09.13 (Sun) Daily Diary

My older brother felt ill all day long today. 

but I did not feel bad at all about his illness. 

I don't know. The reason might be that I don't love him.

Really, I think I do not like him very much even if he is one of the family members. 

but the damn thing that happened today was 

my mother asked me to go to hospital with my brother tomorrow

and I said 'I do not want.' 

and he said to me I am kind of person who has no humanity

and that pissed me off so I said in anger 'Are there any reason I have to go with you'.

I regret saying like that. It was a bit of selfish I know.

Whether I like him or not, there is some things I can say and I cannot say to other people's pace. 

That was my mistake and I felt sorry about this.

So, if he doesn't mind, I'll go to hospital with him for checking his medical condition. 

If he doesn't want me to go, I don't. because that totally depends on his choice. 

I will respect him.

Just.. one of the things I have to remember is 

I got so many helps from my family including my brother. This fact is never the thing that I can deny. 

So, 'Stop Being Selfish'. That is the lesson I learned today.